Dear God,

100% LOCKED :D
(I dont rly get the % thing la but see people do I also copy) :D

THEN, she saw it in the rearview mirror, she hit reverse and thats what it takes to end misery.


Today, went town to get movie tickets and visit Wendy! Slice is nice, her secret recipe is the remedy for sweet tooth. NICEEEE. My morning was actually great when a loud ringing sound followed by nasty opportunities hit me,

'Excuse me, would you like to work in Shop & Save, NTUC, Cold Storage or Giant? Since you applied for Sales assistance'

And of cos I clarified MY version of sales assistance la. For a moment when I was at Somerset MRT, I thought Taiwan and S'pore merged. I saw this cute lil girl with enormous lady gaga wanna be ribbon on her hair. Its ok if she think its stylomilo then what she wore was then the bomb. Obviously shes not local. While she thinks sporean dresses weirdly, most thought of her the same way too.

CASE 39 was a damn good show. You guys should catch it. One thing is, I realised, recently movies that are coming up are mostly gotta to do with kids having evil motives... extraodinary scary weird mindsets and.. powers? Like Murderer, Orphan and now Case 39. It was REAL freaky. Nice show anyways.

After O's, life is very much lighter without the weight of books. Now, the awaiting of results is rather depressing. Heck. Relaxxxx now. :)

The more you emote, the lesser the other party listens.

A sensible girl who cared for others, who bothered about other people's feelings suddenly turned merciless and revengeful one day. Initially we all were daunted by the sudden change. We all blamed/criticized her for who she is but we never cared the cause of the changed. Right now that everything's too late. People started to give up on this girl, while some watched her sink deeper, to someone we never want to know. Because her sacrasm is salt to wounds. But we are blinded by the sacrasm because it is sacarsm that raised her ego, her confidence because sacrasm is a facade to the pain in her. She want no one in to her, sacarsms were her bullets. We all got hit and we all shunned her.

And I realised, we are all superficial. We dont care about the cause, the reason why. We care about what other sees. We care about what happened. Which is stupid because it already happened. When we could actually salvage that little spark, we are too busy making our personal comments. So the change of the girl is the best example to how human "eats" human. Since we all only cared about the front, I finally saw how hard is she building up her front, which kills me a little because I know there is nothing I can do. The worst thing is to see your friend sinking but you know you shouldn't intrude her life because 'who are you?' Someday, Id like to let her know, how much I hate to see her hurt. How much I hate to see her becoming of someone ruthless in order not to get hurt. Maybe someday Ill let her know, the world ain't evil its just which world she's stepping into. 


Goodnight 459messages.
(P.S the girl above Im talking about, ain't me incase your brain is malfunctioning)

Imagine all the girls,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah~
And the boys,
Ah ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah~
And the strings,
Eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee, eee-
And the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums,
the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums, the drums. Oh.

I love this song. I always do. But I don't always listen to it. So when it plays, Ill be really happy. So, my no-life days is starting in about 2 hours time. Mid years and chinese O's is nearing. I can feel the pressure to sudy already. But then, I am still lazy. HAHAHA I really wish I will stop being sucha lazy ass. Homeworks and small tests are nothing to me, therefore I never did study for it. WHEN I SHOULD. I think I will still blog tho. Or maybe not.




My blog is 80% locked anyway. All the exciting gossips or things I will not lock la, but only stuffs about me, which I dont think anyone wants to know, I will lock. :)

Why is all my LJ friends not blogging! Im like some idiot blogging everyday then when I click friends page.. 11th april.... 12th april.... 13th.... 14th.... NOW 18 ALR LAH!! Haiya, now Im so bored :(

I think..... someone just cursed me.


Really, I get hurt almost everyday? I just cut my finger on thursday, friday I accidentally hit the door and my hand bleed, TODAY when I was walking home, I knock into some muscular, no, DAMN muscular guy his arm hit mine, mine just flew back , I could hear the Ccc-rr-r-rrrrack sound can! I bit my lips and walk home in a faster speed. It hurts like mad. I wanted to murder that asshole, cos apparently he was playing with his friend. HOW OLD ALREADY, still play. Hit me somemore. Asshole. Actually, I wonder if someone got blog about me like that before, like when I do random stuffs (like hit a person by accident) then they will 'oh theres this girl blahblahblah'. Itd be so interesting if I know who will be blogging about me, RANDOMLY. Be it good or bad. Better be good. So anyway, I think if there is ever a award for negative things, me and Jaaziel will be getting medals and trophies every year. Ranging from Naughty to rebellious to lazy to irresponsible. Today when almost all of the blue sea peeps was arranging chairs, me and J just sat there and look at them. I foresee the teachers giving up on us cos they didnt bother asking us to help. Oh well maybe they did, but we went to the general office instead and freeload the aircon.

Its not my fault, really. Im really drained today. My hands hurts anyway, I cant lift up heavy stuffs. But I bet, they don't believe a shit Im saying. Whats new. School is insane, I think they had some mental breakdown or smtg, they make the late comers collect rubbish from every class room in every level, from level 1 to 4. So its about 40+ class rooms? I never knew theres such policy man wtf. And, you're right. I was late. Therefore, I have to fucking go to every level and collect. BUT I didnt. I kept scolding vulgarities, like from A-Z whatever I can think of. I was so damn pissed off man. My EZ link with them somemore. What can I do? Murder the teacher in charge? So, in the end, I took the easy way out. I transfer the rubbish outside my class to the DAMN garbage bag Im holding. Lydia and Kia helped me, thanks man. Screw the school. Last time is just lecturing, NOW is like part time maid. MS.

I cannot wait for Os to end, cos I wanna make a memorial closure. I wanna make sure they remember me, for life. I cannot see myself enjoying days after Os tho. Mid years is coming and I havent really hardcore study yet. Tsk. I heard singapore will experience tsunami on july? So INCASE, i say, INCASE its a big one... go do all the things you wish to do now.. confess your love.... etcetc. HAHA, when I heard about this, first thing in my mind was 'I havent even take my O lvls'. THERES A LOT OF THINGS I HAVENT DO CAN!!! I wanna skate board, I wanna go to sit singapore flyer, I wanna eat sakae, I wanna drive, I wanna talk to you like great friends for 10 years, I wanna do alot alot alot of things la. I dont wanna die with my life incomplete. :( I wanna try everything, I want to have a baby! I wonder how does it feel like to have a child of my own. How does it feels like to slap my husband when I found out that he is cheating on me. How does it feel like to drink sitting on the streets. And theres many many many others la. OH OH I wanna travel with my friends. With belle. We can go thailand and laugh at people or smtg. HAHAHAHA. Oh mannnnn, I dont wanna die at this age :(


Randomly, I think cupcakes makes me really happy.
Randomly, I find You very very very amusing, really.
Randomly, You killed whats left of me. ( not in the 'love' way )
Randomly, I feel guilty cos I sin a lot.
Randomly, I want to study very hard from now on.
Randomly, I find edison really hot.
Randomly, I want to call you now.
Randomly, I wonder what will you say to me if I talk to you.
Randomly, I think strawberries is the prettiest fruit.

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Actually, I dont make sense. HAHAHAHAHAHA



Ok what a long post. Ok bye, my blog is alive again.

I kept my distance, but You still caught my eye



Hahaha hi, I know almost half of the class pon napha. You guys make me proud. HAHAHA


So, I said in my previous post, I will wake up early and in the end I was late today. Im always late man, it feels so good to be late cos I get to sleep until 9. Ok la, I not gg to be late anymore. Cannot play already, O lvls coming. Anyway, I unlocked my blog since top scorer cant read. Eh honestly right, we got the same name but different marks.. why ah? Tsk.


I am damn lazy to blog, nothing really happened today. I feel so lazy, I dont even want to walk to my room and sleep. I just want holidays now. I want to be a poly student now! Ryn ah ryn, youre one lucky ass man. :(:( look at me, seting alarm clock (6.30) for tomorrow. Fuck school. Btw, I think the worst way to ever meet yr bf is in a club. For some reasons, I really think so.


I gnna sleep alr, ciao. I feel so exposed now, suddenly unlock my blog.

Maybe I never shouldve......



Hihi! School is.... okay? haha practical today, my mind was really somewhere else instead. I felt guity but sometimes, it takes some courage to do certain stuffs... and say certain stuffs. Ytd night, was a bad night for me. Not anymore now. So, I gave school a miss on tuesday, I heard about the Miss loh minor drama, whats with her and making the class stand man, haha. Mrs wong gave us a treat to milo today! It was damn fun ok, cos we get to disturb her. I wonder which tcher will give us one period to go down to canteen and chit chat man, other than her. Ill miss her even more now besides her april fools trick. Hahaha. Ok la, my blog is so boring please, its moulding. I still don't want to shift back to blogger :D


I know my blog is really lacking of pictures.... but photobucket is not being friendly. I really think its a waste for me to get a DSLR since after holidays Its been in the dry box. Maybe I should spend one day, out, to take nice pictures :) That'd be really great. Bella youll be my model man. I miss ryn and elle. I miss flying kite. I miss a lot of people. A lot of, random people. I miss C once in my life. Just a short period of time. The butterflies in the stomach all, all the waitings I did not regret, I cant say the same for now tho. Anyway yeah, I miss L for being sucha sweetie really, always willing to share her food with me. I miss belle tan HJ, who is willing to listen to me. I miss Zelia, for making me laugh when shes in school. All the brother and all. I miss a lot of people la, theyre all like everywhere in singapore now. Ill be graduating this yearrrr, Ill miss NA clique and all the other random GB people in school. They rox~ HAHAHA

Maybe the school should sew the socks to the shoe, I am sick of wearing socks every morning, its tiring. And maybe hostel too, so I wont have to travel, and I can sleep later. HAI, BUT, tomorrow I have to wear socks in the morning, wake up at 6 20 and travel to school :(

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Nats told me before, never say 'I wish I never knew you', I totally forgot why but Im still going to say,



I wish I never knew You,
Never met You

HELLO!

Ok I need to blog, my blog like... dying I know. Hahah Arielle's party today! It was fun la. Met kia in the afternoon, then we headed off to far east. I need to say this, I saw this asshole for consecutively 2 DAYS, O-M-G WHAT DID I DO MY PREVIOUS LIFE?!!?!!?!? I really despise her, this is coming from the bottom of my pure heart. You are going to think Im some mean ass but she started this, she insulted me first, like I even know her in the first place. Her dress sense sucks, her bag looks like she colored it with some highlighter from Popular, her face is the worst of em all. She this kind still wanna come insult me, I DONT EVEN KNOW HER BLOODY HELL! Shes a whore. Ok next, it was arielles party! Met Wendelynn and Caryn before that! We had a fun time finding the correct bus stop. Anyway, quite a lot of people went la, yup. Eat eat eat, slack, talk shit. Arielle's sister is the best man, I had to say sorry cos I said shit. I was damn stress cos I had to watch my words. Im not VERY vulgar but somethings just comes out like that dontchu agree. So the rest went home except for me, liyana, delvina and arielle, slacking with arielle's friends, I only rmb the guy named caleb. Cos I never hear before. We slacked there till 12 plus then went home. Wth, I thought this will be a damn long post, in the end leh, like that only. Tsk.

ciao damn tired need to study!!